I wish there was someone
anyone
who could just not be cruel and use me, and see me for who I am, and just... stop purposely hurting me. I know people aren't perfect, but I'm SO easy to hurt because my guilt began as a child
and never ends. I guess this is just my fate. I shouldn't have tried again to reconnect, I screwed up and let my guard down... hey... I was told in the very beginning I'm not a serious deal anyway, and look, here I am being treated like nothing important just as I was promised. Sooo joke is on me once again, and it's not funny.
I'm not laughing, but I'm not crying.
///////////be alone not lonely...
[ but it still hurts ]
